. Alas, not me

03 November 2014

Soldier Undaunted -- Chapter 11.2

The next morning Arden and Hansarad headed up to explore the passes. At first Argos and Hansarad’s wolfhound, Alastor, bounded up the mountain before them, but when not quite a mile had gone by the snow was too deep even for their long legs, and they fell back to follow in the broad furrow the horses plowed through the snow. In another two miles the snow was up to the horses’ withers, and rapidly rising. Now the horses seemed to be swimming rather than walking, and sweating from the labor of forcing their way through it. Arden turned to Hansarad.
“Stop” he said. “This is already too much for them. You were right. Even reaching the pass directly above us is hopeless. Getting through them is impossible. What of the others?”
“This is the lowest of the three passes nearby.”
“I see. Then we shall have to seek another way. Thank you for indulging me.”
“It is nothing. If the passes were open, that would clearly be the best route to take. Your road will be harder now.”
“The trouble is that the Green Hills only grow taller the further south they go, while to the north the snows will only be deeper. All the passes for hundreds of miles will be closed.”
“Except for the roads.”
“Yes, except for them,” Arden frowned. “Precisely the way we did not wish to go seems to be the only way we can go. A pity there is no path under the mountains.”
“Evil tales are told, Arden, of those who delve too deeply beneath the mountains. Journeys in the dark seldom come to a good end.”
“Our journey is already along a dark road, the end of which none of us may live to see.”
Hansarad laughed.
“You always say such cheerful things, Arden," he said. "Have you always been this way?”
“We were all different once, Hansarad.”
For that Hansarad had no answer. The passes over the mountains, the route of secrecy was closed to the companions. Hansarad turned his horse to go, but Arden did not move. For ten minutes he sat there without a word, staring up the slope at the snow, up through the dark trunks of the pines that led, one after another, up and up to the summits of these green mountains. Beyond them was an open blue sky that looked down upon the coastlands of Narinen. In summer or early fall he could have easily climbed to the mountains’ heights to look out upon the shimmer of the sea from afar, and perhaps even glimpse the distant, gleaming walls of the City. From so far away it would have been beautiful still. But he could not go that way. He looked back at Hansarad, who was all patience.
“Let’s go back,” Arden said, nudging his horse around. “There’ll be much to discuss.”
The way down was easier, as they retraced their steps through the snow. In places their horses slipped on the ice beneath it, so they dismounted and led them back to the camp. When they drew near, several of Hansarad’s Rangers appeared from the woods to meet them. Hansarad merely shook his head, and they vanished once more. Entering the caverns again they found the others sitting around the long table with three other Rangers who were at leisure that morning. Arden noticed that one was the guard he had passed the night before. They nodded to each other, but she was young and he did not know her. Because of his long absences in the west, many of the young ones were unknown to him. Others had a familiar look about them, reminding him of children he had known or seen, and they seemed to recognize him.
Jalonn was speaking as they walked in. Along with the others at the table he looked up, but addressed them with no more than a glance. Their fruitless morning was reported with another shake of the head. Jalonn continued the tale he was telling.
“In those days, Evénn – it is over twenty years ago now – we had a second camp hidden in the Skia Hills far to the west, about a hundred miles southwest of Reddina. At times there were as many as three hundred Rangers there. Though it did not survive long, for a time it gave us a second place of refuge after the dragons came. Rangers like Arden, whose duties lay to the west could stop there for supplies or to report on the enemy, but it was not so well hidden or fortified a place by nature and the crafts of men as the Valley is. Perhaps it could have become so, but that was not to be.
“One day an apprentice and his master were returning from a journey near the city of Sufra by the western sea. They had been out for over two years and the completion of the young man’s training was nearly at hand. His next journey would have been his first on his own. But the dragon’s men picked up their trail, a large group of them, and they waylaid the young man and his master in a narrow place. There was a running fight through the woods and hills; the action was sharp and bloody. In the end the master was slain, as were their dogs, and all but three of the troopers. The apprentice escaped with his life, though he had been wounded several times. He led the surviving dragon’s men away from the camp, and thought he had succeeded in killing them all over the next few days.
“Yet he was mistaken. Whether weak from his wounds or grief for his master, he was careless and did not make sure that all his enemies were dead before coming to the camp. Wounded though he was, the surviving trooper followed and learned our position. He was extraordinary, this man, for he slipped past our sentries when tracking the apprentice in, and eluded them again on his way out. Of so skilled a man, we could have made great use. In another time, or with a different heart, maybe, he could have been one of us. His feat was no mean one, though he was our enemy.
“Three months passed. Spring warmed into summer. The apprentice healed. A new master was assigned him and they returned to the field. Less than a day out from the camp they spied two regiments of the dragon’s troops marching towards the camp. Near their head, riding beside their commander, was the trooper whom the apprentice had thought slain. His carelessness became clear to him. He and his master turned and rode back as fast as their horses could run. On their arrival they discovered that the dragon’s troops were closing on the camp from every direction, eight regiments of them, four thousand men in all. But the Rangers’ camp was no fortress, built and equipped to stand a siege. Surrounded there, they could not long survive. No matter how many they killed, the battle would be more costly to them than to the enemy. Even victory would have been too dear. For the dragon cared not if he spent all his men’s lives to kill three hundred Rangers. And the dragon himself might come.
“So the commander of the Rangers chose to save those he could. He decided that two hundred of them would disperse into the forest without engaging the enemy and escape if they could; and he called for a hundred to stay and occupy the enemy for as long as possible. Among the first to volunteer was the apprentice. Within minutes they had their full complement. The commander of course stayed behind to lead his Rangers, and the elder Hansarad stood beside him as his lieutenant. If I told you the full tale of the courage of those men and women, all this day and night would not suffice for you to hear it. The two hundred vanished into the woods and most lived to see other days, if not better ones.
“The rest prepared themselves and their camp as best they could, but they did not sit and wait for the end. The commander dispatched small groups to use their bows and woodcraft to harass the enemy, to mislead them into swamps and thickets and valleys that had no outlet. All to gain time for the two hundred to escape by other ways and slip between the marching columns of the dragon’s men. Some lay hidden for hours watching the troopers pass by within yards of their places of concealment; others were caught and perished. None were taken alive to have their will and loyalty tested in the dungeons of the dragon. Most survived, though that was itself torment enough, to know the sacrifice their brothers and sisters had made for them to live.
“Yet no matter the skills of our men, or how they harried and deceived the troops of our foe, the eight regiments continued to advance. Two days and a half after the enemy first appeared, they surrounded the camp in a noose of steel that grew tighter with the hours. Our men withdrew and withdrew until at the last they were brought to bay. The assault of the dragon’s men began that night, a moonless and overcast night. The officers of the enemy led their men forward in wave upon wave, as careless of their men’s lives as they were of their own. Destroying us was all that mattered. Our Rangers fought at the barricades of stones and fallen trees which they had built. They fought on grim and silent, knowing their fate and knowing their need. They were able to repel a dozen assaults since the area they defended was small enough for their numbers.
“But the arrows of the enemy fell like rain in the night. One soon killed the commander – and the young apprentice beside him. Hansarad, the father of our young captain here, then took command. He was tireless, fearless, calm as a winter dawn. Always present where the action was worst. It is said that his sword shone despite the darkness, like a star come down from heaven to light their way to the other world. The courage of the Rangers and the sword of Hansarad long held the barricades despite the odds and the rain of arrows. Yet they knew they could not survive the night.
“About two hours before dawn the barricade was finally breached. A moment later coordinated resistance became impossible. The dragon’s troopers were everywhere, surrounding our men, cutting them off, trapping them, hewing them down and hacking them where they fell. The Rangers had bought their comrades all the time they could. Now it was time to settle the debt.
“And settled it was. All except for Hansarad and a single companion paid with their lives. Against the fury of their swords no enemy could stand. Despite wounds and weariness, they cut a path beyond hope and fear. First they fought their way to the barricades, then beyond them. Hansarad slew a high commander of the dragon, a mighty swordsman, in single combat, and took his horse. He slew another and took his horse for his comrade. At that the troopers shrank back, for terror of this man covered in blood and wounds, his sword shining red, his eyes burning like the fires of the dragon himself. This man, who would not be conquered or slain, accomplished feats worthy of song that night, if any poet could write such a song.
“The fear that parted the ranks for him and his comrade was like the homage paid to a king, before whom all draw back and bow as he passes. For an instant all was still. The fighting was over, the camp taken, but Hansarad and his Rangers had defeated the enemy. He and his companion set their spurs to the horses they had won and galloped off into the early morning darkness.
“None followed at first. The terror of the sword of Hansarad and the fell light in his eyes overmastered them. It spread like a contagion through their ranks; and among those who had not seen him or who had not yet come to the barricade of the camp it was the more dreadful. For rumor of the prowess of this Ranger, who had fought his way out with his companion, had gone before them, gathering strength as it went. Hours passed before any would obey the commands of their officers to pursue the fugitives. When they did give chase, they could find no sign or track to guide them. Like ghosts doomed to walk the night, the two vanished with the coming of the day.
“Among us the story is told because Hansarad’s comrade survived. He himself spoke of what happened only to the Masters of the Rangers, and he will answer no questions about that night. Honors were voted him, but he acknowledges them not. In a room in the Valley is stored a tapestry depicting his triumph. But he will not look upon it, nor permit it to be displayed. Among the enemy the story is also told. I have heard them tell it to each other in hushed voices around campfires and whisper it in smoky taverns late at night. Their victory, they know, was nevertheless our triumph, and they shudder to hear Hansarad’s name.
“And so, Evénn, that is why the elder Hansarad is held in such regard among us. His deeds stand high among all the deeds of Rangers through the many centuries of our service.”
“You tell his story worthily, Jalonn,” Evénn remarked after a long pause to consider what he had heard, “as if you were there.”
“I was,” Jalonn replied slowly in a voice laden with memory and emotion. “But Arden and young Hansarad have returned. Let us hear what news they bring of the passes.”
Arden looked at Hansarad, who gestured for him to speak.
“They are closed, Master Jalonn, just as Hansarad told us yesterday. We could not get within several miles of them. The snow is too deep. We must find another way, unless we wish to wait for spring.”
“That is three months away, even below us on the plains,” said Niall. “And who knows how much longer two thousand feet above us here? Or how much more snow is still to fall? Summer could be at hand before the passes are open. That leaves us only one other way.”
“The pass at Prisca,” said Jalonn.
“Indeed,” replied Niall with a look of resignation, as he turned to Arden, who frowned.
“Then if we have no other choice,” Agarwen said, “we must decide what we are to do. What can you tell us of Prisca, Hansarad?”
Hansarad took a seat at one end of the long table between Jalonn and Evénn. Arden leaned against the hearth, his arms folded. After a moment’s thought, Hansarad answered.
“We watch the town closely. Four Rangers are in the woods near Prisca at all times – two of mine and two from Baran’s camp south of the road. Every other day a pair leaves here: two days to get there through the mountains, two days on watch, then two days to get back, though at need it can be done in a day. The same is true of Baran’s Rangers. So six Rangers are always engaged on either side of the road, a pair going, a pair in place, and a pair returning. Baran and I receive reports every two days. One should be in later today, when Dara and Rachor get back. If we need to communicate, we shoot an arrow across the road with a message wrapped around it. We do not risk crossing the road. Too many eyes are upon it.
“The pass itself is heavily guarded. At least three companies of troopers are always present as a garrison. Another two come and go. One company patrols the Tusk road northward for twenty five miles or so, and another south halfway to the Great Road. So sometimes four or even five companies are in or near Prisca. Above the town stands the library tower, which commands an enormous view of the entire region, including the road, on both sides of the pass. That will be the greatest obstacle. You cannot come up that road unknown to the tower, unless you can make yourselves as invisible as your tracks. The watchers in the tower are also different from the others, a small separate unit composed of more intelligent and disciplined men under their own officers, though they still answer to the commander of the garrison.
“The commander himself is sharp, a hard man and very clever, and he has been there for a long time. In town he lets the soldiers do as they please when they are at leisure, but on duty they must obey promptly and without question. He will kill them without hesitation if they do not. Occasionally he will lead a patrol himself. Several times when we were shadowing a patrol under his command, I could swear he knew we were watching them from the forest. He would stop the column, ride to the side of the road, and stare up into the trees, to all appearances looking straight at us. The first time I saw him do this I was ready to put an arrow in his throat, and would have if he had moved one step closer to us. But, as I said, he is clever. He will not send his troops in here for us to kill until he knows how many we are and where we are. Hunters he sends with huge promises of gold, but none of them have returned to collect. We pay them in a different coin.
“To get through Prisca will not be easy. I don’t know how you will do it, and I have no suggestions to make. The town sits directly beneath the pass upon a high and narrow shoulder of the mountains, whose sides fall sharply for several hundred feet everywhere except where the road approaches. The slopes can be scaled, but it is a slow business and a dangerous one even for practiced climbers. You would of course have to abandon your horses if you attempted the climb. Nor could you get the dog or the wolf up those slopes. And even if you could reach the town unobserved, there would still be the tower to pass and all those troopers. For a scholars’ town, it is exceptionally well placed for defense.”
“So then it must be the road,” said Agarwen, “but how? We cannot go around it, we cannot sneak through, and we cannot fight our way through against those odds. I suppose that knocking on the gate and asking to be let through won’t work.”
No one responded. Arden continued leaning against the hearth, looking dissatisfied and angry. Niall leaned back in his chair, staring at the ceiling. Jalonn’s head was down. With his eyes on the table, he stroked his chin thoughtfully. Evénn sat with his eyes shut and a far away look on his face, as if his closed eyes could see other places and other times. His hand rested on the wolf’s shoulder. Agarwen looked at each of them in turn, then at Hansarad who shrugged helplessly when she caught his eye.
Finally Evénn opened his eyes and leaned forward with the air of someone who has made up his mind to say something.
“I have an idea.”
They stirred and looked at him.
“But we shall need a large wagon.”



Four days later the watchers in the tower had their spyglasses trained on a wagon just beginning its lumbering ascent of the road up to Prisca and the pass to the coastlands. This was not the first time they had seen it. For two days now they had watched it crawl southward at an infuriating pace. Every three hours there was a halt to feed and rest the plump, shaggy carthorses, and at least once a day the right rear wheel fell off, causing another hour’s delay. Four of the five small figures they could see – two riding in the wagon and two on foot – appeared to be almost constantly arguing with each other. There was much waving of arms and pointing of fingers, punctuated by several gestures that even at so great a distance were clearly obscene. The watchers looked at each other with sour judgment. If the spectacle were not so contemptible, it would have been comical.
The fifth figure was mounted, armed with bow and sword. He always kept about a dozen yards behind the wagon, and held himself aloof from his companions’ disputes and labors. Clearly he was some ruffian, a hunter or former soldier of the fallen Republic, hired to protect the group from other renegades like himself. Only once did he leave his place. When the northern patrol out of Prisca marched into sight the day before, he had ridden slowly forward to sit athwart their path, bow in hand. Casually he loosened his sword in its sheath, then held up his hand as if ordering the column to halt. He was a bold rogue, whoever he was, the watchers decided. That much was sure. The commander of the patrol came up and spoke for a few minutes with the tall dark-haired man pointed to by the horseman. Satisfied, the officer let them pass. The column moved north. The wagon moved south. The tower kept watching.
This morning, after a night spent at the foot of the mountain, their large campfire bright and clearly visible from the heights, the travelers hitched their horses to the wagon once again and began the long winding climb up to the town. From time to time the wagon disappeared around a bend or behind the trees, only to reappear again a few minutes later. They would, the watchers knew, spend most of the day in this weary journey, and arrive before the gates of Prisca in the late afternoon. There they would wonder rather stupidly, as most who came that way did, why no better accommodations were to be had: as if, instead of an armed camp, Prisca were still the friendly town of scholars, eager to please the elite of the City of Narinen who had long sent their children there to study subjects the dragon deemed useless.
The watchers on high in the last standing bastion of Prisca’s library were all men of the western plains and mountains. Like their sires and grandsires before them, they gladly sold their crops and cattle to feed the people of the larger towns and cities, but did not want to know them, they held suspect any knowledge that was not at once useful, and were hostile to any wisdom unlike their own. The watchers in the tower looked down on the town below them, despising it as much for what it had once been as for the filthy, crowded ruin it was now, never thinking that they had aided the dragon in making it so.
After a little reflection they decided that the travelers climbing the road towards them had to be a party of merchants. They were not attired as soldiers or couriers of the dragon, and, except for that tall fellow on the horse, they were clearly an undisciplined lot of townsmen. They could not even hitch their sorry looking horses to their wagon properly. They hooked up everything in the wrong order, a sure sign of urban stupidity. Somehow, though, they had managed in the end, and started their ascent. Perhaps the rider, who was clearly at home on a horse, advised them.
By midmorning the merchants were close enough for the watchers to glimpse their faces. That of the rider was grim and determined, the close cropped beard on his chin was gray, and gray was in his hair also. His eyes ceaselessly scanned the road ahead and the woods to either side. His cloak was heavy and also gray, much like those worn by Rangers. That gave them pause.

The leader, presumably the merchant himself, was tall with dark hair and clean shaven. He seemed to pay attention to his surroundings, but talked incessantly to the other three, two of whom were grown men, the one a bit taller than the other, both bearded, but their cloaks were wrapped about them and their hoods pulled down over their eyes against the cold. They took turns driving the wagon. The third was smaller and of a slighter build. Beneath his hood they could just glimpse a young face with no beard. When not walking beside the merchant ahead of the cart, he was hastening back at the merchant’s insistence to check the wagon and the knots that secured the oiled canvas covering over the back. A boy, then, and likely the merchant’s son. Their clothes were stained with travel. Except for the guard’s horse, a very fine gray, the four that pulled the wagon were quite ordinary cart horses, though fat and old and a much on the sorry side. What goods the wagon held, the watchers could not guess.
In the early afternoon, the officer of the tower sent word down to the garrison commander that the travelers they had been observing were well up the mountain and would arrive an hour or so before sunset. Merchants were a rarity these days, since few had the gold the dragon demanded for the purchase of a merchant’s commission; and they were even more rare in the middle of winter. The commander of the garrison was of course always pleased to see them. For he exacted a duty before letting them through the pass. His officers were under strict orders to delay any merchants until he could extend his official welcome to them. Since he was often away from Prisca on patrol with the troops, merchants had been known to wait a week before he returned to greet them.
But the merchant approaching today suffered another mishap in the afternoon, which put off his inevitable meeting with the commander for nearly an hour. Just as his lead horses reappeared around a turn, the wagon abruptly stopped and one of its wheels came rolling into sight, pursued in all haste by the boy who overtook it just before it hit the low curb that bound the road’s edge. The sound of voices raised high in anger carried upward through the mountain air. The watchers shook their heads. By the time the wagon started moving again, it was clear they would not reach Prisca until nearly sunset.
And so it was that the wagon, its right rear wheel wobbling dangerously, came slowly around the last turn in the road and attained the shoulder of the mountain on which Prisca stood. With his son beside him, the merchant stood at the gate and knocked. The guards came forth to examine his commission and ask him his business. The sun, just touching the horizon now, cast his shadow in their eyes, and light gleamed around him and the boy, making it hard for them to get a good look at them or the men on the seat of the wagon behind them. The tall man sitting quietly astride his tall horse some yards further off, sword and bow crossed on his back, was little more than a shadow rimmed in fire. The guards did not like the look of him, from what they could see, but he remained motionless.
“I am but a merchant,” said Evénn, “newly returned, after much hardship, from the northern wastes of this land, with a shipment of rich furs and fine amber for General Machlor.”
“ ‘Machlor,’ you say, but anyone can say ‘Machlor,’ ” responded the sergeant in charge of the gate.
“I do assure you, sergeant, that I am not just dropping the general’s name to impress you. I am not such a fool. Nor are you. You would see through me the instant I did so. Clearly.”
“Listen, merchant. Your papers are in order, so I’ll let you pass. But don’t you waste your breath on me, and I shan’t waste mine on you. I’m not some farm boy or country boob, like them up in the tower, that you can cheat out of my boots by telling me how clever I am. I’ll let the captain know you’re here at last, and he will pass the word to the commander. We’ve been expecting you, you see.”
“Thank you, sergeant. You are most kind. But tell me, sergeant, is there a smith who can effect repairs to my wagon? We’ve had a bit of trouble with the wheels coming off it the last few days.”
The sergeant looked upon him with contempt.
“Up the street there,” he said waving his arm dismissively, “and around the bend, just past the last tavern on the right, but there won’t be nobody there to fix your wagon until the morning.”
“Then, since we’ll be staying in Prisca for the night, perhaps I can prevail upon you to join me in that very tavern later this evening for a pint of ale.”
“I doubt it,” the sergeant replied and returned to the guardhouse.
Evénn gestured to Niall, who shook the reins and the wagon lurched through the gate. Jalonn followed them in on horseback, holding the reins lazily in his left hand, his right resting on his hip. He kept his gaze fixed steadily before him, ignoring the soldiers beside the gate who for their part did not take their eyes from him and the gray Ranger’s cloak he wore.
The sergeant put that, too, in the report he scrawled hastily as he looked out the guardhouse window. His eyes followed them until the curving street took them out of his sight. Still he kept looking after them for a few minutes, scratching his head thoughtfully. He decided to bring the report to the commander himself once he had finished it.
When Niall brought the wagon to a halt in front of the tavern the sergeant had directed them to, Arden jumped down from his seat and took the lead horses by their harness. Niall knocked long and loudly on the doors of the smithy, but no one answered. As he returned, Arden was whispering into the ear of Impetuous and stroking the neck of Graymane, Niall’s horse, in harness beside him. Niall had to look closely at the four horses to recognize them through the deceits of the spell Evénn had woven about them, giving them the appearance of nags not long for the world. Niall, too, had spoken words of enchantment over them, only his were to make them more readily accept the harness to which they were not accustomed.
So far all had gone well. Hansarad had obtained for them a wagon from a farmer who dwelt west of the Tusk road not far from the Rangers’ camp. An old man who remembered the Republic, he was secretly friendly to the Rangers, a friendship that had grown stronger after the dragon’s men had carried off his only child, a daughter years before. With this wagon – in return for which they had pressed the old man to accept their pack horse – they had moved south along the road, making sure to look foolish and incompetent once they came within sight of the tower, arguing with each other in an exaggerated fashion and rigging one of the wagon’s wheels to come off periodically. The last time they had in fact nearly lost it over the side of the mountain. Agarwen’s mad sprint after it was only half an act. Niall laughed to himself as he thought of it, and he began unharnessing the horses. Since it was certain they were being watched, he had to give every appearance of their planning to stay the night.
He looked at Evénn speaking quietly to Jalonn over the back of Moonglow, whom Jalonn had been riding for the last three days. Agarwen held the horse’s head and kept a stealthy eye on the soldiers coming and going along the street in small groups. When he and Evénn were done, Jalonn took the reins from her and flipped them around a rail just outside the tavern door. He slid his bow into a boot on Moonglow’s right flank, and unslung his sword from his back. Then he sat down on a bench and leaned back. His sword he lay across his knees. Before closing his eyes, he nodded one last time to Evénn.
The elf came walking swiftly over to Niall and Arden, with Agarwen right behind him, her hood still up.
“We’re going into the tavern for a pint of ale,” he said. “That’s the natural thing to do, and we might learn something useful. How are the horses?”
“Impatient,” Niall answered, “but under control.”
“Keep your eyes open.”
“Someone’s got to,” Niall said, with a sidelong glance at Jalonn, who appeared to be dozing.
Evénn smiled and entered the tavern with Agarwen.
“Why does he get to have the ale?” Niall muttered playfully as he attended to the horses.
“It’s his plan,” Arden replied, working beside him. Niall chuckled.
Before long they had all the horses free of their harness and tied to the hitching rail. They kept watching the street as they worked. None of the passing groups of soldiers showed much interest in them, but several slowed down to steal a look at Jalonn, still reclining against the wall in the fading winter twilight. Niall was strapping bags of oats over the horses’ noses when the wind shifted and came blowing gently through the pass not a hundred yards away. Arden immediately raised his head to stare into the east and the oncoming night. He took a deep breath, then exhaled it in a great, slow sigh.
“Do you smell it, Niall?” Arden asked, almost dreaming.
“Yes. The sea. I smell it, too,” he responded, no longer wishing for a pint of ale since he had the salt air in his lungs. “It’s been so very long.”
Before Arden could say another word, they saw a group of soldiers approaching them, a young officer at their head. He looked quickly at Jalonn as he passed him, but the swordmaster gave no sign that he was aware of his presence, much less his attention. He stopped in front of Niall and Arden.
“Are either of you the merchant named Gallen?”
“No, sir,” Arden answered submissively. “He is in the tavern with his son.”
“Then go get him. I must inspect his commission.”
“But, sir, the sergeant at the gate – ”
“Go get him.”
“Yes, sir,” Arden said and headed for the tavern. Niall watched Arden go past Jalonn, who still did not stir, and through the door. The officer and his eight men were between Niall and the wagon, where his sword lay hidden under the canvas behind the seat. He had only a dagger at his belt. He did not like the feel of this.
“Lieutenant sir, if you please,” he asked, “is there somewhere we might stable our horses for the night? It was a long climb today and it is growing colder by the minute.”
The lieutenant examined him for a moment without a word, then answered.
“Perhaps, if your master’s commission is in order.”
“I trust it will be, sir.”
“The commander will be here presently and he will decide that for himself.”
“Yes, sir.”
Just then Jalonn stretched and yawned. The officer eyed him, assessing the threat he posed. With half his men he walked over and stood before Jalonn as he opened his eyes.
“Is this how you guard your master’s goods? Sleeping while they sit unprotected in the street?”
“Are we not among friends here?” Jalonn drawled his answer, adding a crooked, sleepy smile, which the lieutenant ignored.
“That looks like the cloak of a Ranger you’re wearing.”
“It is,” Jalonn answered, with one corner of his mouth still turned up.
“Where did you get it?”
“I am a hunter, lieutenant,” he said in a sharper tone that suggested he was not impressed by the young man’s rank. “Last spring I killed its owner in the Gray Mountains above the North Deer, and took his cloak, along with his head.”
The lieutenant was about to reply when Evénn came hurrying out the tavern door, wiping his mouth with his left hand while extending his right. A bright smile was on his face. Agarwen and Arden hurried out behind him, then drifted slowly over to stand beside the wagon with Niall.
“Lieutenant, lieutenant,” he cried, “thank you for coming to meet us. I was just on my way to see you and the commander. I paused only to quench my thirst after a long day wasted yelling at the idiot servants necessity has forced upon me.”
The young man took Evénn’s outstretched hand, and Niall smiled to hear the faint clink of coins as their hands clasped. Mollified, the lieutenant withdrew his hand, closing his fingers quickly over his palm as he did so.
“That is all right,” he said, his hand vanishing beneath his cloak. “But next time you would do well to pay your respects to the commander first, and not leave it to him to come seek you. Now, let me see your commission.”
Evénn slowly pulled back his cloak with the fingers of his left hand, revealing that neither sword nor dagger were at his belt, but rather a large purse which looked quite full. With his right hand he reached into a pocket in the cloak and withdrew a large piece of parchment folded in quarters.
“Here you are, sir, properly signed and sealed.”
The officer tried to read it in the moonlit gloom. Evénn waited, saying nothing. Finally the lieutenant motioned one of his men to bring a torch closer.
“It appears valid, correct in every way in fact, but it is almost twenty five years old. I’ve never seen one so old.”
“True,” Evénn said with pride, “I have had the good fortune to enjoy the dragon’s commission since I was a very young man. Few have been so lucky, I think.”
“Very few in fact. Be that as it may, the commander is on his way to greet you and welcome you to Prisca. He will discuss your commission with you further as well as the nature of your wares.”
“The commander does me an honor. I shall certainly mention his kindness – and yours of course – to General Machlor when I reach the City. By the way, sir, has my man here,” Evénn said gesturing at Niall, who took the chance to bow slightly, “inquired about stabling for our horses for the night? He is not good for much, that one, but he does take excellent care of the horses.”
The lieutenant looked at the four fat jades tied to the rail, and wondered how many feet a horse must have in its grave before it was too late.
“Yes, I can see that,” he answered dryly. “In fact he did inquire. I’m sure you can make some arrangement with the commander.”
“Thank you again. Now will you join me for a pint while we wait? If your duty permits you, that is.”
Evénn gestured invitingly towards the tavern door. After a moment’s thought, the officer agreed. Niall and the others began to relax as the elf whisked the lieutenant onward. His hand was on the door when a voice rang out.
“Stop, lieutenant. That man is no merchant.”

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Soldier Undaunted -- Chapter 11.1

Eleven

The next day the weather broke. It was still cold, but the clouds cleared out to the east as the day grew older. Beneath the blue afternoon sky the Green Hills crested above a horizon of trees and mist. Unlike the steep and jagged peaks of the Gray Mountains, they did not challenge the heavens. They were old and worn. Time and weather had exhausted them past caring. The earth was enough.
The first men to come up out of the sea to this land over two millennia ago called them the Green Hills, since not even the highest peaks of their humped backs were bare of trees. From their deepest glens to their summits dense forests covered them. Pine and fir spread across their heights; below oak and maple, ash and hickory clothed the lower slopes, which rolled downward into the foothills and forests of the eastern border of the Plains of Rheith. Even during a mild winter they were well watered on their western flank by the rains and snows that came in from the west. To the east the damp sea air, coastal fogs, and storms off the ocean gave them all the moisture they needed to grow thick and green.
But neither the autumn nor the early winter of this year had been mild so far, and as the companions looked from beneath the trees along the river, they could see snow gleaming from the top of the range all the way down to the western edge of the woods at their feet. As the sun sank westwards and the tide of night flowed up and over them, the river they had been following for over a week made a sweeping turn towards the mountains. Their road now ran directly east. From here, Jalonn said, the eaves of the forest were no more distant than a day’s journey, and the nearest of the mountain passes two days away.
“But from the look of things,” he added, “the snow there already lies deep. We may need to seek another way.”
Arden and Niall reluctantly agreed to Jalonn’s assessment, but none of them wished to consider the alternative of which Jalonn did not yet speak openly. For if they could not make their way over one of the more remote passes near the source of this river, passes that would bring them down into the coastal plain a hundred miles north of Narinen, they would have little choice but to travel some twenty miles south until they reached the open pass at the scholars’ town of Prisca.
From there the road led southeast until it joined the Great Road fifteen miles west of the City. It was this road Arden had been set to travel one morning thirty years earlier. He did not wish to go that way. His father and elder brother had studied with the loremasters at Prisca, and Rangers he had spoken to told him that its wonderful library had been razed. In Arden’s youth and long before, there had been much coming and going between the City of Narinen and Prisca, but few besides soldiers now lived in this once beautiful town, for centuries the greatest seat of learning west of the sea, a school for kings and statesmen, scholars and soldiers. At times even the loremasters of the elves had crossed the wide ocean to visit Prisca for consultation and debate.
There from the tower of the library, which rose high above the pass itself, one could look down upon the fair town and the narrow road winding up to it from the tawny fields and shining rivers of the Plains; or gaze eastwards through the pass over the green, grassy lowlands of the coast and the sea beyond. At sunrise the first ruddy light of dawn spilled though the pass to gleam like a beacon off the tower’s golden roof. Arden’s father used to tell him how as a young, homesick scholar he had often climbed the tower’s long stairway to look upon the sea and catch the scent of salt air on the morning breeze.
Little remained of the town these days, only shelter enough for five companies of the dragon’s men. A few of the taverns, which long had been full of song and of students debating history and literature over pints of ale, had in the dragon’s time become the haunts of ignorant troopers and hunters, who sang coarse songs and argued over coarser women. The library had fallen before the fire of the red dragon, who had himself come to reduce all learning to ashes: any knowledge but his own was hateful and dangerous to him.
But the tower was there yet, rising above the library’s broken walls. A watch tower it had become where keen eyed men kept ceaseless guard over the pass and road, which the garrison labored to keep open for the many troopers and spies, hunters and messengers who came that way. Rangers had at times stolen into the ruins at the feet of the tower to salvage what books they could from the ashes. A few had escaped the tower’s vigilance and brought away treasures; most instead lost a treasure and never returned. Yet, though the Rangers who dwelt in the nearby hills still kept a watch of their own on the town, none came near it any longer. No Ranger had ventured inside in a dozen years.
“We’ll know more in a couple of days,” said Evénn. “No need to consider other ways just yet.”
They continued on for a few hours more, then bedded down for the night. The next day was warmer and they found the snow less deep as they moved steadily closer to the forest. It was the first promising sign they had seen in some days. The thought that perhaps the storms might have spent themselves in the lowlands raised their spirits as the Green Hills grew taller before them. A pass might still be open.
Niall and Arden exchanged a few hopeful looks. Neither of them had been this far east for many a year. Arden had always asked to be posted to the west. He had never been within sight of the old mountains since he had come west with Jalonn. Niall had been back once about twenty years ago. When at last he had returned to the Valley, he had answered Arden’s look of inquiry with a frown and a shake of his head.
That was as full an answer as Arden had wanted. He had of course listened to official reports over the years, and overheard snatches of the conversation of others, but he had also made every effort to avoid news of home whenever possible. Once, several years ago, the Masters had suggested to him that he would be ideal for a posting in the east. He replied that he would not obey if they commanded him to go, unless they also ordered him to seek out the dragon. The Masters let the matter drop, and Arden returned to the west, where only his duty took him. His heart and his home lay by the sea.
In the dusk the next day they stopped and made camp for the night a half mile or so from the small road which led down from the northern town of Tusk – so called from the tusks of a huge, shaggy creature like an elephant whose remains had been discovered in a bog there when men first settled the town seven hundred years ago. It ran along the forest’s edge, leaping the Valané on a single arch of stone, crossing the road which climbed up to Prisca, and vanishing into the remote south.
Twice before Arden had walked this road. Once as a boy he had come this far north, hunting for a week in the fall with his father and brother. It had been a spectacular season, with warm days and cool nights beneath rustling leaves of red and gold. Though they had not seen a single deer, Arden remembered that trip fondly when he allowed himself to think of it at all, as he did today. His second time on this road was fresher in his mind. The year after the Fall he and Jalonn had hidden in the woods beside it for months, hunted themselves by the dragons’ men and the packs of mountain wolves they had begun to use as trackers. But that was over three hundred leagues south of where they stood this evening.
The companions slept little that night. While Niall remained in camp with the horses, the others scouted in pairs for miles in either direction. This close to the City the roads and paths were closely watched. The garrison at Prisca patrolled in force, and often set luckless spies to keep an eye on the land. Few of them owned the cunning to elude the Rangers of these woods. Weeks later they were found, long dead and blinded, bound in the middle of the road. The rare survivors had little to report, because they saw nothing, or only what the Rangers wished them to see.
In the mean, chill hours before dawn the companions decided it was safe, and by the time the sun was up, the road was miles behind them. On this side the land rose quickly. The trees began to change. The river grew narrower as they approached its source. Soon it was no more than a swift, shallow stream. Since the camp of the Rangers who dwelt here lay south of the Valané, Jalonn led them across to the other bank before the hills grew too steep. He hoped to encounter them soon, or at least before the end of the day. After a month of hurried secrecy and isolation, it was essential to hear the news of the enemy they had gathered, and to learn whether the snow had already closed the passes. Messages may also have come in for them from Master Raynall. He was also looking forward to the possibility of a fire and a warm meal.
Jalonn of course knew the site of the Rangers’ camp, halfway up the mountain they were climbing and some miles further south, but he felt it was wiser simply to follow the river upwards, and allow the Rangers to find them. Wiser and more cautious. For, while there were no tracks in the snow behind them, even eyes that did not see their tracks might still see them. Jalonn wished no further encounters with hunters. The two at the river had been reckless, even if they could not have known of Mahar’s bow. Shrewder hunters – and many were quite shrewd, skilled in the wild, and fell handed in combat – would have shot down Agarwen and Evénn before revealing themselves. If anyone were on their trail today, and dared enter these woods, the Rangers would isolate and cut them down.
Knowing that he would surely be recognized by any Ranger who saw him, Jalonn scouted ahead with Argos. Since Niall and Arden were old enough for many of these Rangers to know their faces, Arden came not far behind Jalonn, accompanied by Agarwen, Evénn, and the wolf, whom the elf kept close by him today. Niall came last some two hundred yards back. Each also gave the sign that all was well – quivers closed and reins held in the left hand.
Shortly after midday, Evénn indicated with a look and a nod that they were not alone. His sharp ears had detected the faint sounds of others in the woods on either side of the stream. The wolf, too, had noticed them. He kept stopping and staring into the distance, but with a soft word Evénn bade him stay with them. The companions were being shadowed, an unusual experience for Rangers. While the best hunters could track them, rarely could anyone come so close undetected.
Up ahead Jalonn rode on quite calmly, his hand on his hip. For some time he had known that other Rangers had found them. Argos, too, like the wolf and Evénn, had heard the faintest sounds above the voice of the stream. The Rangers would appear, Jalonn knew, once they were satisfied that he and his companions were not being followed. He guessed they had been moving along on either side of the stream for about an hour. That is what he would have done. Presently he rounded a large boulder overlooking the water and saw a man of about thirty five sitting on a rock. He was peacefully waiting for them. His sword lay sheathed across his knees and in his hands he held a small knife, with which he was carving a piece of wood. He let the chips fall into the stream and hurry away downhill. The Ranger looked up casually as Jalonn drew near.
“Master Jalonn, welcome,” he said. “Your party covers its tracks exceptionally well.”
“Hansarad,” Jalonn answered with quiet pleasure. “I’m glad it’s you. Your father is well and sends his greetings.”
“Thank you,” he said, rising and advancing. “That is good news.”
Jalonn dismounted and clasped Hansarad’s extended hand.
“Any sign of pursuit?” he asked.
“No. Who could pursue without a trail to follow? You must tell me how you managed that.”
“Perhaps when you are older.”
“You’ve been saying that for years, Master Jalonn.”
“Yes, and when you have proven yourself, I will tell you what you need to know.”
Hansarad laughed and said, “There are only five in your party?”
“Yes, it seemed a better way to preserve secrecy.”
“Niall and Arden I know, and the woman’s face is familiar.”
“She is Agarwen, daughter of Ramas.”
“Of course, I remember her now. The other is the elf, I suppose? We were all astounded when Master Raynall informed us that the dragonslayer was among you, and that we have two of the ancient weapons. He is truly Evénn?”
“Yes, unexpected as that might seem.”
Hansarad shook his head and shrugged.
“I suppose that if the monsters of legend can return,” he said, “so can the one who slew them.”
Argos walked up to Hansarad, sniffed him, and wagged his tail slightly.
“And you, sir,” Hansarad said to the hound, “what are you doing here? It seems you and your wolf friend would not be left behind.”
Argos wagged his tail more enthusiastically. Hansarad stroked his head, then looked at Jalonn.
“A week ago we received word that two nights after you left Argos and Evénn’s wolf broke out of the kennels and went after you. Apparently, not even the Guardians of the Forest could capture them. Master Raynall was particularly keen to warn us that a wolf would be with you, lest we slay it on sight. First the dragonslayer, then a friendly wolf. It is all very surprising.”
“My life has been one continuous surprise to me, Hansarad, and Evénn would have taken it rather ill, had you shot the wolf. Did Raynall say anything else?”
“No. He said there was no other news, except that the other Rangers have departed the Valley as planned.”
Jalonn nodded his head. Raynall had set the pieces moving. Parties of Rangers would be in place across the land by the time he and his companions reached the City. Just then Arden and Agarwen appeared around the boulder, followed a moment later by Evénn with the wolf by his side. They had dismounted and were leading their horses. Hansarad and the wolf eyed each other.
“He’s all right,” Evénn said, coming up to Hansarad with his hand held out. “He’s been a good friend to me. Thank you for not shooting him. My name is Evénn.”
“So I have heard,” Hansarad answered, taking his hand and looking him over. “As for him,” he said, nodding at the wolf, “we try not to kill our friends, even on the rare occasions that they are wolves.”
They stood for some time by the brook, speaking in low voices, waiting for Niall to catch up. Hansarad questioned them about their route and what they had seen in the woods and on the plains. Jalonn’s account of their clash at the crossing of the Rheith with the hunters interested him most, especially the shot Arden had made over its broad waters. When Niall arrived, the company moved on, guided by Hansarad. Several miles further uphill they turned off to the right, and for the rest of the day traced a winding course through pines at the foot of a lofty cliff. Near sunset they descended from a ridge into a small dell of ancient hawthorns and maples and entered the Rangers’ camp. In the heat of summer it must have been shady and cool, but a cold mist shrouded it now, soaking their hair and clothing as they moved through the gathering gloom. When the dark mouth of the caves where the Rangers dwelt loomed suddenly up through the fog, it seemed like a door to a grim underworld where their ghosts would sleep until the world’s ending.
“This has always been a cheery place in winter,” said Jalonn.
“And it has lost none of its charms over the years,” Hansarad answered, his wry tone matching that of Jalonn, whom he had known all his life.
“At least you can offer us a fire and a warm meal, I think.”
“Master, the scholars at Prisca would have told you that our distant ancestors lived in caves like this one, but even if the dragons have driven us back into them, I believe we can still make fire, and a decent venison stew.”
With that Hansarad called in a louder voice into the cave. Soon their eyes detected a faint glow growing within. It brightened steadily until another, much younger Ranger, emerged with a torch. Immediately they followed him within, and after a few twists and turns found themselves in a large well lit cavern. Its walls were rough and unfinished, unlike those of the citadel, but they glittered and sparkled in the flickering light of many torches. To one side was a hearth, with a large iron pot bubbling over the fire. Above it a chimney of hewn stone mortared together ran up to a natural vent in the cavern’s roof. The aroma of venison was most welcome after weeks in the cold, rain, and snow.
“It’s warmer in here than I expected,” Agarwen said.
“The caverns further back have hot springs,” Hansarad replied. “They make this place bearable in the winter, though you would never know that from outside.”
“I knew there were such springs scattered about these mountains, but I was unaware of any here,” Niall said.
“They allow us to stay warmer than most of our brother and sister Rangers. Somewhat cleaner, too. After our meal, you can soak the chill from your bones if you wish.”
“That would be welcome indeed,” said Niall and the others agreed.
At a word from Hansarad, the younger Ranger who had brought the torch was joined by another who had been tending the hearth and stirring the stew occasionally. They went out to fetch the horses and lead them off to other caverns which were used as stables. Evénn and Niall went with them. In the chamber it was warm enough for the companions to remove their mist soaked cloaks and hang them by the fire to dry. Jalonn sat himself on a bench beside the hearth and drew out a long clay pipe, which he lit and drew on thoughtfully. Other Rangers came in by ones and twos over the next half hour. They paid their respects to the Master and reported to Hansarad, their captain, that there had been no sign of any enemy throughout the day. All was quiet. Four of the two dozen Rangers present in the camp remained outside to keep watch, two at the entrances to the dell, two roving ceaselessly through the woods beyond.
When Niall, Evénn, and the two young Rangers returned from grooming the horses nearly an hour later, all sat down on long benches around rough tables to eat their meal, which they did without much conversation, thankful for fire and hot food at the end of a cold winter’s day. But if Arden’s companions were aware that their arrival here marked only the end of one stage of their journey and that the greater challenge lay ahead, Arden himself was reflecting with a mixture of ruefulness and irony that the next fire to greet them would not be so welcoming. After their meal, he got up and walked over to stand staring into the hearth, thinking of the kindness of the glowing flames before him and the cruelty of those to come. In his mind he could hear the screaming of men and women long dead whom the dragons’ fire had consumed, while brief pieces of friendly conversation and sometimes laughter reached his ears from the table behind him.
This dark turn of thought, he knew, came from the disquiet that had been growing within him since they first sighted the Green Hills two days ago. His ancient yearning for vengeance, his reluctance to see the fallen City of his youth, his dread of failing now as he had failed then, were knotted in his soul. Through all the years of single-minded waiting he had not expected to feel this way when the time came. This thought, too, amused and annoyed him in equal measure. Then the voice of Master Jalonn asking Hansarad about the enemy roused him, and he turned from the hearth to listen.
“During and after the harvest, of course,” Hansarad replied, “they were quite active, moving about the land to make sure that no one had hidden away more than enough grain to keep themselves barely alive for another year. They oversaw the gathering and transportation of it to the City. They drove off the surplus cattle, sheep, and pigs as well. Since then, however, they have been quiet. The weather this last month has not encouraged anyone to venture out. Their patrols along the Tusk road have been perfunctory, with little interest in looking into anything that might keep them away from their barracks and the taverns of Prisca longer than necessary.”
“Any hunters about?” Agarwen asked.
“No, not for several months. A half dozen of them came over from the City late last summer and tried to track two of my men back here. We let them come deep into the forest, far beyond any aid from Prisca, before we dealt with them.”
“So the woods are safe. But tell us, what of the passes?” Jalonn said.
“I fear they are buried deep, Master. As you know, they are steep and narrow, treacherous even for those who know them best. But with all the snow that has already fallen this winter, I doubt anyone could make it over them safely. If you could reach them at all, that is. You saw how deep the snow is here? It grows rapidly deeper as the mountains rise.”
“What if you guided us?” Arden broke in impatiently.
“That would only endanger more lives, Arden,” Hansarad replied, “and bring you no closer to the City. I believe you know something of these mountains, Arden. You were raised near them. The snow must be more than ten feet deep up at the passes.”
“But you don’t know?”
“Easy, Arden,” said Niall calmly. “Hansarad probably knows these mountains better than we do. He has lived and served here for many years.”
Arden glared at Niall, then frowned and turned his attention back to Hansarad.
“Your pardon, Hansarad. I was not questioning your ability or courage. The passes would simply serve us better.”
“No doubt they would,” Hansarad answered, taking no offense, “but not this winter. You must live to reach Narinen. Still, if you wish, tomorrow we can climb up to the higher slopes and see for ourselves.”
“Thank you,” Arden said. “I would be grateful for that.” Then he paused. “But now I think I had better go outside and clear my mind. “
Arden took his cloak and left the chamber, closing behind him the door that kept out the cold. Outside he retraced his steps back out of the hollow, where he found one of the four Rangers on watch. He told her that he was going to try to climb up above the mist and have a look at the stars. As he was working his way up the mountainside through the snow, he heard behind him the call of an owl. It was one of the signals Rangers used to let the others know there was a friend in the woods.
The stars slowly faded into sight as the mist began to dissipate. Once clear of it entirely, Arden settled himself on the top of a rocky overhang. The crowns of the pines growing on the slopes below reached high enough to screen him from the western breeze and the view of anyone further down the mountain. As he brushed away the light, dry snow and sat down, he repeated the owl call to give the Rangers on watch a notion of his position. The call was returned from several directions over the next few minutes.
Up here the night was cold and clear, and the glow from the numberless stars washed over him and down the mountainside to the forest and plains below. The dark tree lined course of the Valané emerged from the woods and ran west towards the waxing moon. On either side of the river and stretching as far as the eye could see, the snow covered fields shone white in the starlight. The peace of the night made him regret his abruptness with Hansarad, who would not have been the captain here if he did not know what he was about; and everything he had seen on the mountain tonight told him that the young captain was certainly right about the passes.
He realized that he needed to meditate, which he had not done since they left the Valley a month ago. The thought amused him, since for so long he had done without it, had rejected it, yet now he felt the need of its benefits. To spend an hour each day focused on something outside himself had done him good. He could only admit that. For so many years he had been isolated, serving alone in the west; meeting other Rangers only seldom and at appointed times to send reports back to the Masters; or more often concealing messages in remote locations where days or weeks later another would retrieve them and pass them along; returning infrequently and briefly to the Valley; traveling constantly, often in disguise, friendless and speaking to few. Those like the innkeeper at Kinabra, who recognized him for what he was and welcomed him discreetly, were very rare.
In constant, silent conversation with his younger self and with his memories, all the while on guard against the enemy, against the treachery of his frightened countrymen, and even against himself, he had long kept himself apart from those who offered him friendship. Yet in the few months since he had met Evénn he had let others come closer to him than anyone had in years; and it had been a pleasure for him. Now he was retreating again, for fear that he would lose them all: Jalonn who found him; Evénn who saved him; Niall who was bound to him in a strange unspoken friendship; and Agarwen who had been his apprentice and desired what he could not give. He had been alone too long.
With a sigh and a frown, he pulled his cloak more tightly about him, looked out upon the night, and began to meditate as they had taught him in his apprenticeship years before, and as he had done sitting beside Jalonn each day of their last month in the Valley. He counted his breaths, slowly in and slowly out, until he was calm within; and he tried to think his way through the old prayers and litanies that directed his thoughts away from himself, out to others, to the world, and to god, to a life of which he was not the center.
When his own thoughts and feelings intruded themselves, clamoring for his attention, he considered them one by one, then let them go and returned to the point at which they had interrupted his meditation. Slowly he moved forward; he cleared his mind; for a little while he let slip the bondage of self. All his other thoughts, emotions, and memories were still present, but his perspective on them shifted. They did not clamor so insistently when he was aware that he was only a part of the whole.
Arden heard the owl call again from below. The stars told him that about an hour had passed since his meditation began. He became aware of how cold he was, nearly at the point of shivering. But the call indicated that someone else was also outside the dell. Rising, he moved about to restore his circulation and warm himself. A cloaked figure soon appeared from beneath the shadows of the trees to his right. It was Evénn. The gray wolf walked beside him, shining in the last of the moonlight.
”I thought it would be you,” Arden said. “It’s your time of night to leave camp.”
“You’ve been meditating,” he replied. “The tension has left your voice.”
“Yes. I did without it for so many years that I’d forgotten how much it calms me.”
“It’s easier to notice the difference when you’re not alone. Turmoil within us becomes our normal state after a time, till we cannot see it without a point of comparison. The same is true of serenity. We forget it is there until we meet others who do not know it.”
“Serenity?” Arden laughed with a hint of bitterness. “I’ve never known that.”
“But you know a piece of it right now. Your voice tells me that. It is often not a tranquility, but a clarity – as when we call a clear sky serene – that allows us to see the disturbance within us as if from afar. It allows us to recognize that what disturbs us is not all there is. The wound is still within you, is it not?”
“Yes,” Arden replied, not liking the question.
“And it still aches, doesn’t it?”
“Yes.”
“But right now you see it differently.”
“Yes,” said Arden, though it felt a betrayal to say so.
“Just so."
Arden gave him a dubious look, which he was sure the night would conceal.
“Do you think I’ve stopped feeling the pain of my wounds, Arden?” Evénn asked, his eyes not deceived by the night. There was no anger in his voice, no edge of passion, as there might have been, only a sorrow for lost things that was as certain and silent as stone. There was only one answer.
“No, Evénn, I don’t.”
“Have you ever wondered,” he asked after a pause, “what I do when I leave camp at night?”
“Of course, we all have.”
“One of the things I do is meditate, just as you have done tonight. The dragons took everything from me, too. All that remained was the small hope that, with the ancient weapons, I might be able to save what is left of my people. That’s what brought me here. But it’s been twenty five years without a single word of news. What if they’re all dead? That’s long been my fear, and now that the possibility of going home is before me the fear grows only worse. Without prayer and meditation, I could never face it.”
“I see.”
“Do you?” Evénn asked.
“Yes, I do. It is coming home again, Evénn, to the mountains and the sea, to the City and the graves of my people that disturbs me. I’ve been away for so many years, waiting and longing to return, yearning to strike back at the dragons; and now that I’m almost there, I feel myself cold and at a loss when I think a fire should burn within me like a furnace.”
“You fear you will fail, after all your waiting.”
“Yes.”
“And in failing you feel you will betray those graves you dug as a boy, and betray your father who has none.”
Arden did not answer, and Evénn continued.
“You will not betray them, Arden, even if we do fail. You did not fail them thirty years ago when you could not accomplish the impossible and save them. You will not do so now. The only failure would be not to try, not to fight with all your strength. You will not fail before the dragon. We all know that. It is not the dragon that daunts you. It is yourself. You will prove true when truth is needed.”
“Your words are kind,” Arden murmured, not sure that he was right.
“Now, I think I will walk in these woods,” Evénn said, “and look upon the stars.”
Evénn and the wolf disappeared into the trees, and Arden turned back down into the dell. The owl calls haunted the night behind him. Inside the cave he found Jalonn and Hansarad deep in conversation. Niall was on a cot asleep, his face turned to the wall.
“Arden,” Hansarad said to him as he came in, “why don’t you soak in one of the hot springs? I imagine you won’t have much chance of a bath for some time. The men use the one at the end on the right.”
“Perhaps I will. At least it will loosen some of the grime.”
Arden went out of the cavern into another chamber and down a passage. The springs sounded like a pleasant ending to a long, cold day and a colder hour and more in the night outside. Torches on the walls lit his way. Near the corridor’s end he passed another chamber with an arched entrance on his left. From the corner of his eye he glimpsed in the torchlight a slender white form through the steam of the spring. It was Agarwen rising from her bath, and he could feel her eyes upon him. He did not look. Then the doorway was behind him and he continued on down the corridor.
In the chamber Agarwen listened to Arden’s footsteps dying away, and wondered whether she had truly seen an instant’s hitch in his stride or whether she deceived herself.

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